I can't believe it's spring already! How is it that time flies? I read somewhere that it' s like a bandit that steels in the night. You can chase after it but there is no catching up. It bobs and weaves, baiting you like some sort of prankster. And just when you think you've caught up, ZOOM!! off it goes again. Time is a floosy! Time is a.... well, for lack of a better word, a "cock tease". lol But if it makes sense, in a good way.
To say that time flies in a negative way, means that you regret what you are leaving behind. Yeah, it's hard to move on, to change, to adapt, grow older, but it's what makes the world go round. It's what we all have in common. So, maybe it's a positive thing after all. Who knows! For now, I;ve made my piece with it. Let's see in a few months when I turn 30!! HA!! Maybe I won't be so forgiving... or maybe I will.
Ps.
check out:
http://mercerfriendly.com/blog
Sunrise
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
it's funny what a little time does to the soul
It's funny what a little time away does to the soul. A few hours before, you're on a plane ready for a much deserved vacation and hours later you're in paradise. Just like that. Same clothes, same person, different environment and pace of life. The best part is, all the negative feelings, the stress, the anxieties, all of that melts away with the life you left behind.
What is it about being in a tropical area, by the beach, the sand, the breeze, the fruity drinks, that makes me want to eat less, meditate, be good to myself, and enjoy life? I mean there are beaches, sand, breezes, and fruity drinks here(well, ok, not so much in the middle of winter, but you get my drift) but I don't get the desire to improve myself as much. The laziness sets in, the depression, the monotony, life. Or at least my view of it.
How can i get everything I had on vacation when I am back home? Some people can just come back as if nothing, lament they are not on vacation but go back to their lives, just like that. DO i take my life so seriously and consider myself that important that I come back only to lament what i have left behind and stay focused on that lament? Life DOES go on after all, but why does it have to go on the way it was before vacation? If i am a changed person because of my experiences on vacation, how can i continue that now that I am home?
What is it about being in a tropical area, by the beach, the sand, the breeze, the fruity drinks, that makes me want to eat less, meditate, be good to myself, and enjoy life? I mean there are beaches, sand, breezes, and fruity drinks here(well, ok, not so much in the middle of winter, but you get my drift) but I don't get the desire to improve myself as much. The laziness sets in, the depression, the monotony, life. Or at least my view of it.
How can i get everything I had on vacation when I am back home? Some people can just come back as if nothing, lament they are not on vacation but go back to their lives, just like that. DO i take my life so seriously and consider myself that important that I come back only to lament what i have left behind and stay focused on that lament? Life DOES go on after all, but why does it have to go on the way it was before vacation? If i am a changed person because of my experiences on vacation, how can i continue that now that I am home?
Sunday, January 13, 2008
quick quick quick
Ok, ok, so before i jet set myself to vacation land, here's a must see(hear) blog I proudly and highly recommend:
http://mercerfriendly.com/blog
Hop to it people.... this music is awesome!!!
Hasta luego!!! Beach, fruity drinks, sun tan lotion here I come!!! YIPPY!
http://mercerfriendly.com/blog
Hop to it people.... this music is awesome!!!
Hasta luego!!! Beach, fruity drinks, sun tan lotion here I come!!! YIPPY!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Old New Year, New Year
5, 4, 3, 2, 1..... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! For old acquaintance be forgot, blah blah blah,blah blah blah blah.... OK, what the hell does this song mean? AND why must we sing this every New Year? Is it good luck or something? I mean if we don't sing it will that make the new year we have just entered all shitty? The funniest is hearing the song in spanish, with a salsa beat... WHAT is THAT about??!!! hmmm... definitely a song for the ipod. :)
What can I say about this last year? I mean there were good times, not so good times, fun things, not so fun things; just like every year. For me, this year was a year of complete change and new beginnings. Marriage, freelancing, nesting, communicating, all of it new. There was death, illness, hospital visits, but overall it wasn't a bad year for the health department. We were blessed with tons of work, which sometimes didn't seem like a blessing, but it was. Work=money... money=security..... security=comfort... comfort=bliss... bliss=a good life. So, there was plenty of money!!! Overall, i can't really say anything awful about 2007. All i know is that all the good and bad combined and alone are blessings we are fortunate to have.
Welcome 2008!! I welcome abundance, good fortune, happiness, good health, long good lives, blessings, financial success, great work, love, good sex, passion, good communication, fun, motivation, self control, flexibilty, new hobbies, travel, and a great bond with my family and friends... I welcome all of this into my life and the lives of those that i love. The Universe provides, IT has my back, and IT blesses me always. THANK YOU UNIVERSE.
What can I say about this last year? I mean there were good times, not so good times, fun things, not so fun things; just like every year. For me, this year was a year of complete change and new beginnings. Marriage, freelancing, nesting, communicating, all of it new. There was death, illness, hospital visits, but overall it wasn't a bad year for the health department. We were blessed with tons of work, which sometimes didn't seem like a blessing, but it was. Work=money... money=security..... security=comfort... comfort=bliss... bliss=a good life. So, there was plenty of money!!! Overall, i can't really say anything awful about 2007. All i know is that all the good and bad combined and alone are blessings we are fortunate to have.
Welcome 2008!! I welcome abundance, good fortune, happiness, good health, long good lives, blessings, financial success, great work, love, good sex, passion, good communication, fun, motivation, self control, flexibilty, new hobbies, travel, and a great bond with my family and friends... I welcome all of this into my life and the lives of those that i love. The Universe provides, IT has my back, and IT blesses me always. THANK YOU UNIVERSE.
Monday, November 26, 2007
tis the season
Ah, we've come to that time of year again.... tis the season to be jolly.. fa la la la la la la... bah humbug, etc. Don't get me wrong, I love the holiday season. All the eating, partying, drinking, eating, baking, eating, and gift giving.... did i mention eating??!! How could you not love the holidays? So, why is it that with all the happiness, comes depression, sadness, manic thoughts of negativity and self deprication? Ah the holidays! With everything else in my life finding the right balance of happiness and generosity with bitter sweet sadness and depression is an interesting feat. So, with this I say, a happy and healthy holiday season to all and to all a good load of sanity! :)
Monday, October 22, 2007
Recharging your batteries
This past week has been an interestingly difficult one. After the loss of a loved one last week and all the pomp & circumstance leading up to & including the final goodbyes, the funeral, I did what I have never allowed myself to do. I recharged my batteries! The weeks leading up to his death were draining for everyone involved but I actually did bodywork on him to make him more comfortable. My hands were able to help someone on their deathbed, do you know how amazing that is? My energy, my hands and the comfort they were bestowing on him in the end made me feel like i had been a part of something truly special, inexplicably beautiful. Seeing him lying in that bed suffering wasn't beautiful, i am not that twisted!...but the energy I felt was. It felt like I was helping him in a way cross over peacefully.
However, i have never felt drained like i did after all was said and done. Is it depression, am I hiding from the world, am I preventing myself from living b/c i am too afraid of losing again? All these thoughts crossed my mind but then I realized, I was recharging my proverbial batteries. The best part of that realization was allowing myself to do it... being ok with the process. Well, I am still charging the batteries and little by little going out into the world. But how do I do that without wasting what little energy I have already acquired? And at what point does it turn into hiding from the world, depression, not living? Where is that balance or at least how do I find it? And what if this particular moment in time, is the Universe's way of showing me my true life path??? What is the Unviverse telling me that I am not hearing? What does the Universe have in mind for me after this? I guess these are all questions that have come along for the ride in the battery charging zone.
However, i have never felt drained like i did after all was said and done. Is it depression, am I hiding from the world, am I preventing myself from living b/c i am too afraid of losing again? All these thoughts crossed my mind but then I realized, I was recharging my proverbial batteries. The best part of that realization was allowing myself to do it... being ok with the process. Well, I am still charging the batteries and little by little going out into the world. But how do I do that without wasting what little energy I have already acquired? And at what point does it turn into hiding from the world, depression, not living? Where is that balance or at least how do I find it? And what if this particular moment in time, is the Universe's way of showing me my true life path??? What is the Unviverse telling me that I am not hearing? What does the Universe have in mind for me after this? I guess these are all questions that have come along for the ride in the battery charging zone.
Monday, October 1, 2007
Time
How is it time just zooms by? When we are little, it takes forever. I remember sitting in class and looking out the window or looking at the clock and the day just dragging on.... 3 more hours til lunchtime/recess.... 3 more hours til i get to home.... 4 more days til Friday... uh! drag drag drag! Now, it's the extreme opposite. I find myself saying, " How is it noon?... Holy crap it's 5? How is it Friday???" It's funny sometimes. I mean who isn't happy to leave work at the end of the day or for the weekend, right? Well, there's a price to pay for that I guess.... when you start noticing grey hairs, or your joints & muscles aching, or you're just plain tired all the time.
Those things are normal I know and not as freaky to me as say seeing someone turn 21 when you changed their diapers and carried them as babies. THAT's freaky! And yes, it's happened to me! The worst thing though, is seeing the people you care about, your parents, their friends, your elders, growing older by the minute. WIth every birthday or New Year comes new aches, pains, injuries, diseases, surgeries, and death. How do we get to this point and how can we deal with seeing those people that once took care of us and protected us growing fragile and eventually dying? How do we prepare for that? Is there a way to prepare to lose your parents/granparents/aunts/uncles/friends,etc. And how does one, as an aging adult, say goodbye to their friends who are dying or sick?
We spend our whole lives trying to find people to relate to and some of us are lucky enough to find that community. What happens 30, 40, 50 years from now when that community starts dying one by one? That saying,"it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all", I don't know how I feel about it anymore. I mean, YES, it is better to have loved and lived than to hide your life away. OK, agreed! BUT when you are the one losing the people you love and you're left behind, alone, then what? Is it still better to have loved and lost and lived? Left with your memories, the voices of the past, and, for those people lucky enough to commune with the spirit world, left to communicate with souls... never to see their loved ones again or touch them.
LIFE.....
Those things are normal I know and not as freaky to me as say seeing someone turn 21 when you changed their diapers and carried them as babies. THAT's freaky! And yes, it's happened to me! The worst thing though, is seeing the people you care about, your parents, their friends, your elders, growing older by the minute. WIth every birthday or New Year comes new aches, pains, injuries, diseases, surgeries, and death. How do we get to this point and how can we deal with seeing those people that once took care of us and protected us growing fragile and eventually dying? How do we prepare for that? Is there a way to prepare to lose your parents/granparents/aunts/uncles/friends,etc. And how does one, as an aging adult, say goodbye to their friends who are dying or sick?
We spend our whole lives trying to find people to relate to and some of us are lucky enough to find that community. What happens 30, 40, 50 years from now when that community starts dying one by one? That saying,"it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all", I don't know how I feel about it anymore. I mean, YES, it is better to have loved and lived than to hide your life away. OK, agreed! BUT when you are the one losing the people you love and you're left behind, alone, then what? Is it still better to have loved and lost and lived? Left with your memories, the voices of the past, and, for those people lucky enough to commune with the spirit world, left to communicate with souls... never to see their loved ones again or touch them.
LIFE.....
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