So, I decided to take the day off to spend some time with my best friend before she goes on a 3 month journey to South America. I figured I had some time to kill before I met up with her, so I went on Amazon to buy a camera I've had my eye on. Well, wouldn't you know my password isn't working and I can't remember it. So i have them send me an email with my password, etc.. (you know the drill... in this day and age we're all familiar with the process!)ANYWAY, I am sitting there waiting and nothing, so I decide to go into my SPAM folder(which i NEVER go into) and I find this email from my friend Joseph Dumas, who is a FANTASTIC psychic medium. It's basically a link to his interview on Dr. Laurie Nadel's radio show "The Sixth Sense" (on WebTalkRadio.net). Now, I have known Laurie for what seems like forever. She's a FANTASTIC psychotherapist and spiritual healer.... see where i am going with this??... So, after my 2 minute freak out about this being a small world, etc. I realize that I was the one that hooked them up a few years back. Ok, i TOTALLY forgot about that. HAHA Space cadet moment, i know! SO I click on the link, all excited to hear 2 of my favorite highly evolved spiritual connections. I sit through the show, like a kid back in the day before TV existed and radio was the best form of home entertainment. Hanging on to ever last syllable, imagining what they are talking about and the entire time feeling this energy rise up and awaken within me. I am supposed to be listening to this... i am supposed to be hearing and taking this in and learning from this. SO as the interview nears the end, Laurie mentions the prayers of this French spiritualist Alan Kardek... my heart stopped! This means nothing to whomever is reading this I am well aware.. but bear with me. Let's rewind so I can set this story up better.
I come from a line (not sure how long or short)of healers. My whole life I have been surrounded by gifted people(psychic, mediums, healers, shamans, etc.)in one way or another. One of them was my aunt Elena who would perform these cleaning's on us with very little ritual(well, from what we could see) but they ALWAYS made us feel better. I'd go over to her apartment and she would have me grab an egg from the fridge,hold it in my hands for a while and then she'd take me into her room, sit me on the edge of her bed, have me close my eyes, and then proceed to run the egg from the top of my head to the tips of my toes and all around. All the while saying some prayers i never heard, thinking intentions i can only assume were good. The cleansing process only took a couple of minutes but afterwards she would hold my face in her hands & kiss my forehead and stroke my hair and clasp me to her chest like a baby. She'd ask if I wanted to talk or if everything was ok. Typical loving mom/grandma type stuff. IT was the safest & most comforting times of my life growing up. Our time to bond. Not to mention I would always feel good afterwards... lighter.
Sometimes Tia Elena(Tia=aunt) would hand me copies of prayers (Psalms usually) and tell me to say them on my way to work or in the mornings or when times were rough. There were always certain prayers to say for certain occasions, like, a prayer for what I thought was calming my anxieties, or a prayer for protection. She was VERY gifted, all knowing i thought. She always sensed when something was going on and knew the right thing to make it better. Tia Elena died 7 years ago this July.. 7 years!So much has changed since then. The world is a different place, MY world is a different place. When we were cleaning out her apartment(she never married or had kids)I found her prayer book and her journal. Aside from her handbags and scarves(she was an accessory WHORE just like me!!),that was the only other thing I REALLY wanted to keep. So, i started reading the prayers in the book, all for different occasions in life. All prayers by Alan Kardek!
When I met Dr. Laurie Nadel, I was her new patient. Never having been to a therapist I figured, "Hey WHY NOT!" Laurie quickly became a friend and a mother figure...similar to Tia Elena. She didn't quite clasp me to her bosom but she did give me that sense of protection and nurturing that my Tia had done my whole life. Then I find out she's a spiritual healer and one day she says Oh i have a prayer for you..... wouldn't you know it, it's an Alan Kardek prayer.. and not just ANY A.K. prayer, but one that i had already been saying from my Tia's prayer book. SO i knew this was a sign.
A few years later, I'm on craigslist, of all places,& I come across this ad for a medium looking for clients. So, i say, never having been to a medium, "HEY WHY NOT!"And that's how i met Joseph!!! he told me things that would blow any one's mind! Meanwhile during and way before all this, I had started my own journey into the spiritual world. So much so that when my Tia died, my family thought with her died the cleaning's, the prayers, the spiritual side of my family, the last of the healers. Little did they know that although Tia never physically taught me how to perform the ritual cleaning, or what they meant, i had learned by watching her and was following my intuition. I had no clue what i was doing, but i knew i was doing something. I had no clue what prayers to say but i knew to say something and hell why not A.K.'s prayers.! at least it was something. So, that's what i did... i read books, learned how to do readings with Angel cards, started to meditate, all so i could follow in the family footsteps & follow what i thought(hoped) was a gift.
Fast forward to today.... it's been a LONG time since I have done ANYTHING to expand this gift. I am lazy & hate putting in the work, the time, the emotional energy involved in this process. I emailed Laurie some time ago and asked her to be my teacher.... but I let life get in the way b/c I was(am) afraid of what I will learn. I know my hands heal, bring comfort, i KNOW i help people but the thought of doing anything about it is frightening. I don't want to become that kid in the "6Th sense" who "SAW dead people"..lol I don't want to be like Joseph who is having a conversation with you and having spirits/energies trying to get through and distracting him. BUT at the same time, I DO! HA Who knows if that is even a gift of mine.. it may not be! But the struggle is there. So, I go about my daily business pushing Spirit down. I haven't spoken with my Angels in ages, I haven't read the books, I have stayed out of touch with Laurie & Joseph. ALL b/c i am scared and lazy.
SO, this morning I am in the shower and I get this flash of a dream I had ( i guess this morning).. .it was my TIA ELENA, who hardly ever visits( well, i shouldn't say that, i think she does, i just don't remember the dreams), but when she does, NEVER talks. Well wouldn't you know it she talked! The message was for me but it's really for someone else but the point it SHE TALKED! And then , I decided to stay home and do some online shopping while i waited for my best friend and the rest is history.
SO, the point of this VERY long post, is that there is no such thing as coincidences! AND i should really get back into it b/c I feel a hell of alot more alive when I am around it than when i am not. AND if i don't get back into it, i am afraid that I will lose the gift forever.
I dedicate this post to the memory of Tia Elena. Gracias por tu visita y por tu proteccion siempre. Te quiero mucho y te llevo siempre en mi corazon!
